Yep, I am the center of my own
universe. I understand this. I know that I can not change the
feelings of others. I understand that they and they alone can change
their feelings. I also know that I am responsible for my own actions
and reactions. You do not piss me off. I allow the results of your
actions to piss me off. I am a big boy (not just in a porn star way
either) and I understand that I choose to feel shitty, angry, happy
or what ever spectrum of not dead I have to go through to get through
life. I know that I am the controller of what is in my head. I decide
to live by my code of conduct. I walk on my own spiritual path
because I choose too. I do not do this for praise, adulation, or with
expectation other than self gratification. So in that I say this is
who I am, and if you don't like it, I can choose to give a fuck. If I
don't you can make your personal choice to be butt hurt. This is how
it works. This is the universe in a nutshell.
Now I know that I am the center of my
own universe, and I know you are the center of yours. Universe
implies a lot of space though. So while I am the epicenter of my own
field of mass destruction, I know that being the center is not the
end of it. No man is an island after all. So we have to at least once
in our life interact with other centers, and we have to make choices
about them. We have to decide if we like them or not. We have to
decide how reactive we are going to let them be in our life. We can
give thought to whom we let in, and who we tell to get the hell out.
We surround ourselves with those we want to surround ourselves with.
In participating in society we have on
a subtle level agreed to play by the established rules. We are saying
that we not just kill those that piss us off. We agree to play nice
with those that come out with us. We accept the decisions of others
if we decide to join in a group, tribe, office, or gaggle fuck with
them. It is along the lines of sex. When you hump somebody, you are
are saying you are willing to sleep with every person they ever slept
with before you. Now this is not a question of your sexual
preference, but a statement of fact. This is also why some people I
know are completely safe from being exposed to my awesomeness. I know
who they slept with and personally I could never stomach that. You
know who you are, and if I am saying your judgment sucked on who you
banged, that is saying something.
So in this you have to understand that
balance of personal and group social dynamics. This comes with being
a part of a group. You do not have to like everyone in the group, but
you have to understand that being part of the group you agree to play
nice with all the people in the group, and listen to the rules of the
group as a whole. This is also why I do not like cheaters. You agree
to play a game, like monopoly for example, so you play by the rules
in the damn box. If you are not playing by the rules you are not
playing monopoly, but rather a twisted weaker version that is not the
game at all. If you cheat to win, than that victory is shallow as
well. So play nice, play by the rules, or leave the interaction to
better people than you.
Now somebody reading this is probably
thinking this is about them. I am going to say get over yourself and
understand this is not about you, but rather about me putting my
thoughts into form. This about understanding roles we all play. This
about understanding the value of everyone, and that everyone has a
value under the right situations. This about making it clear that I
am agreeing to play by the rules, because if not what is the damn
point of playing. I understand the pros and cons of the choices I
make. I understand the difference between agreement and offering my
word. I understand the levels of commitment you offer to a group.
While I am not saying too my readers that they do not understand
this, I am sharing my level of understanding. If you get butt hurt
over that, remember it is your choice not mine.
So in this you need to understand the
balance of life. You are the center of your own universe, but the
universe is pretty damn big. The more you are a douche nozzle the
more crap will be brought into your universe. I say this so you guys
know why I am a judgmental asshole because I like my universe the way
it is, and I do not need somebody's bullshit contaminating it. I try
to bring the good in, and I favor those things that make my life more
meaningful. In doing so I fulfill my social responsibility by not
bringing garbage into the universes of those I choose to interacts
with. Its all about being respectful.
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